Evil.....just evil!

The reason I don’t sleep is because i’m afraid I won’t wake. I used to stay up all night and stare at my ex-girlfriends face (creepy lol). I’m not afraid to fail, I’m just afraid of not trying. I’m afraid of wrinkled clothes and of not having an iron. I’m not afraid of being alone, I’m afraid of being together and unhappy. I’m not afraid of being vulnerable in front of a woman, I’m just afraid she will laugh at me (eww u ugly when u cry). I’m not afraid to tell you my secrets, I’m just afraid you will use them against me. I’m afraid to answer my door like “who is it?” and they respond “the devil sent me”. I’m not afraid to lend people money, I just afraid they won’t pay it back. Now i’m afraid i’ll have to beat you with this baseball bat (A-Rod on um). I’m afraid of HIV, But i’m not afraid of raw sex. But I’m not afraid to stop in the heat of the moment and say “hold on lil mama! let me get that latex”. I’m afraid of having flaws while pretty girls are hanging around. For some reason it’s always the pretty girls that love to put everyone down (they just really insecure). I’m afraid of big girls because they try to punk skinny guys. They be like “come here u skinny muthaphuka, Let me get them fries” (don’t play with my food woman). I’m afraid to like ciara because everybody said she was born a man. I’m afraid of lady gaga because……well, she’s lady gaga (thats reason enough). I’m afraid of skinny jeans, and pum-pum shorts on men (please I don’t wanna see your “situation”). I’m not afraid of 2012 and the world coming to an end (well, maybe a little bit). I’m afraid of eating watermelon and chicken in front of white people (LOOK AT HIM. HE LOVES IT, LOL). I’m afraid of shaking hands with the sanitation man (chill, pour bleach on them things homie). AND YES! I’M AFRAID OF THE KOOL-AID MAN (ANYBODY YELLS “OH YEAH” I’M SHOOTIN THEM). I’m afraid of being ashy. I’m afraid of being LAME. I’m not afraid to be corny (wait! ain’t corny and lame the same?). I’m not afraid to die, I’m just afraid not to live. I want to see the world and raise a couple of kids. I wanna be in love, get married, and grow old together like my grand-parents did. There are a lot of things i’m afraid of, and there’s a lot of things i’m not. Why am I afraid of the light and not afraid of the dark? Truth be told, the only thing i’m afraid of….IS GOD! I fear no man, I fear no squad. I fear nobody. I’m fearless you see. I hope this little poem gave you some incite on me.